I don’t smoke; not that I would even if I never met this girl… but sometimes when I saw people smoking, I thought of her, and I know that I’m still keeping a simple promise that I made to myself long ago… and it feels good.

Not sure how she thinks about smoking these days… people change. Who knows, her current boyfriend might be quite a heavy smoker, that will be pretty ironic.

Life goes on, haven’t seen her for years.. I feel a bit weird thinking back, feeling a bit stupid, a bit embarassment, a bit of regrets and perhaps a bit of everything.

There’s a proverb that says that.. people will rarely regret on things they did, but regret on what they didn’t. So true.

I wonder what will happen if I did ask her out, but guess I’ll never know.

A woman loves the man, the man love the woman who can’t love him.

In the end the man marry another woman, who has no love for him, and he doesn’t love her.

Such irony are more likely to happen in Korean drama, life should be simplier than that, and hopefully so.

“When A Man Loves A Woman,” 1994 movie, same title soundtrack by Michael Bolton..

Quite a good movie, it made me wanted to become a pilot back then. Not sure how I ended becoming an engineer instead.. life is ironic afterall, you can’t always get what you want.

Orinial 1966 version of When A Man Loves A Woman, by Percy Sledge..

I’m probably not the best person to give the girl any advice, all I can do is to listen, lend her my shoulder and give her a hug when needed.

It’s kinda weird.. year 6th seems to be a curse for my friends.. 3 pairs have seen their love ended since last October. I probably won’t able to understand at current moment, how on earth can people get along for 6 years and broke up in the end?

I’ve never been in any relationship for more than 2 years, I’m quite a jerk when it come to love.. I can be a great friend but probably not a good lover.. not now at least.

Anyhow the things that mingle in my mind now is what can I do to comfort my friend? She’s obviously lost and the only thing I can say is time will heal. That’s BS by the way, I have friend that is still mourning over a relationship that ended 9 years ago.

How long will the wound takes to heal depends on various people maybe.. some seems to be recovering pretty fast in weeks.. some as said.. still in grey after years.

Love Oooo Love.. what is love? What can I do? Cupid please give me a clue.. perhaps not.. you fugging stupid cupid.

6 years ago.. I sent a note to a girl I had a crush on, and asked for a date, she never replied. For the next 4 months I had a feeling that she turned and ran everytime she saw me from a distance.

5 years ago.. I still had some feeling for the girl in previous year, who left to study in US. I got nothing better to do and involved myself in lots of stupid extra-curricular projects.

4 years ago.. I was busy studying for my university final year exams, my last relationship didn’t lasted long enough to spend the Valentine’s Day together.

3 years ago.. I forgot, but probably spent with my family as we were having some problem at that period, which turned out quite fine.

2 years ago.. I drank with a few friends at Souled Out, it had been almost 2 years since I last dated anyone. One of my friend mumbled about difficulties to get a girlfriend, he got himself married just one and a half year later.

1 year ago.. I forgot, Valentine’s Day was something that was so irrelevant in my context. I was probably busy playing Civilazation 3 at that time.

This year.. yesterday.. I played a night long mahjong with my buddies and lost $63.70, I need to get a girlfriend so that I won’t need to play mahjong again next year.

Happy Valentine.

My friends, 2 of them were my classmates. They had been together as couple for 7 years, many of us expected them to marry pretty soon.. but last month they broke apart. Reason being the guy had found his dream girl which is destined to be the one.. and thus he had to make a “heartbroken” decision to end their 7 years relationship to pursue his destined love.

It’s nothing as a matter of right or wrong with his decision.. it’s a matter of choices..

What will you do if you are in a long term relationship, only then you found out that there is someone that really touches your life more than your companion, you found someone that really gives you the heart pounding, you found someone that you really genuinely love.. what will you do?

Between love and commitment.. what will you choose?

What will I choose? What is love anyway?

Since adulthood (I considered I reached that at 13 btw) I had a few crushes along the way, but never seriously commited in any..

.. the last woo I ever had was about 5 years ago before that lady decided to pursue her dream studying overseas. Since then I never ever met a girl that I had any real feeling with, that seems a bit weird.

Was that I still have feelings with my eXs.. which I believe no. In fact some of their faces are fading off my memories. Truth is I enjoy my life currently and dedicated to building my career and dreams, so much so that I never really thought of finding love..

I know it’s a bit abnormal for a 26 years old guy for not having any girlfriend for 5 years, something I felt a bit weird too.. but to get a girlfriend just because I needed one is pathetic.. I believe in faith (my heart is yelling BS!!)

Arhh whatsoever.. I thought I won’t bother about this matter, but somehow I was still awake till now (6am) don’t know what I am thinking about.. does this issue really buzzing in my head? no I don’t know.. I am confused right now..

Mum: “son oh son, when u r lookin for a job? when r u going to get a gurlfren, when r u getting married, when r u having kids?”

jee (that’s me): (thinking how to make more money)

mum: “are you listening arhh boy?”

jee: “yes…” (but still thinking about making money)

mum: “you day day sit in front of computer how to get a girlfriend?”

jee: “… (still thinking about money but start to think about my mother’s question)

Come home think about it one full day, where should I get a girl friend as a full time webmaster… here is my brilliant list:

1 ~ get a job, meet more people

2 ~ go back to college studying MBA, lol sure got lots of pretties there

3 ~ clubbing everyday? ermm who knows?

4 ~ online dating, believe it or not, it works… my fren is marrying her online date that they have met in person just few months ago.

5 ~ go to Coffee Bean at Genting.. nice coffee, wonderful bliss, good mood.. everything is ready for a good romance to prosper

6 ~ go to fitness club.. dangerous lar, what if some guys want me as their boyfren, erww..

7 ~ date the girl next door.. guess what? My sister married to our neighbour

8 ~ go to church, oh god forgive me all I want is to get a girl friend, ahmen

9 ~ pray, pray a lot… I might find a genie in a bottle

10 ~ buy one larr, from Vietnam cheap only