Jee’s Life

I’ve been working freelance in internet projects for one and a half year now, without a permanent job.

Come to think of it my brother’s situation some times ago convinced me that working a 9-9, 7/24 job isn’t an ideal case for it. I mean my brother is making good money but needs to travel a lot, I remember that I was the one that fetched my sister-in-law for clinic/hospital during her pregnancy (pregnancy was not that smooth for her, but she did deliver a healthy baby)… also I spent more time with their son more than my brother did during the first few months of birth.

I know it’s not really my brother choice, he love his son more than everyone do, busy working is unavoidable to support his current living standard.

I, however are looking for something different, I want to be making a decent income while have every bit of leisure at the current moment, NOW is the term. Making money at home with internet is probably the best options I had, and I followed my instinct.

18 months pass by, I have little success. Occasionally I am getting a 4 figure monthly income but nothing is guaranteed. Last month I was having a server issue… 1st is a server crash, I changed host immediately and experience a few days of downtime… deja vu my new host server crashed again just 2 days after my move… I almost fainted.

Last month my account is in red, I have virtually no income and lost a few hundred bucks for the hosting and advertising, and an unaccountable opportunity lost.

Chinese like to say “the more unlucky you are, the more unlucky you will be”.. my bad luck haven’t ended, it hit me back in real life. My car desperately needed servicing and my air-con needs repair, check the bill it’s mounting to +RM900, OMG my heart is crushed.

The join-venture between my friends are not going well neither, got some miscommunication and difference in ideas.. it has been staying stagnant for the last few months since the starting of our private limited company.

For 18 months of dedication towards internet business, I was at a brink of giving up everything and find a job. I was feeling totally insecure, I missed the feeling of paying for a nice meal without worrying how much is left in my pocket.. my credit card debts are skyrocketing I couldn’t sleep well at nite, it’s time for me to change.

I was about to send some resumes on last Friday until I encountered a few Malaysian webmaster forum, knowing some of them are consistently making a 4 figure income monthly, that boost my confidence again.

“If they can do it, I can do it better”

I am not going to give up that easily, I will give myself until the end of the year to prove myself, until then wish myself luck, luck, luck.

“Jia You” and never never never give up without a good fight.